Completely offered to You

Photo credits: My beloved youth pastor

The bridge of “The Stand” never fails to find its way to my heart. And today, it was the chorus that struck me. 

What can I say? What can I do? But offer this heart, O God, completely to You.

God has given us everything. He gave us even His only Son to die for our sin (which is what prevents us from having a perfect relationship with God) so that we may have that perfect relationship  with Him again. Nothing that we can ever give will be able to be compared with what God has given. And that left me believing that the only thing that’s ever worth giving to God is myself, and giving it completely without restraint. 

If that’s the English song that describes how I feel towards God, then here’s the Chinese one —全然为你.

我生命气息全然为你,如同香膏倾倒 / 无悔地付出,只愿你心得满足 / 我生命气息全然为你,如同香膏倾倒 / 全心来献上,最深刻真挚的爱

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A new experience of doing redemption 

We went to Chinatown this afternoon to recce the place to see whether there were any #redemption opportunities. We had absolutely no idea where to go, no idea what to do, no idea how to do this, all we knew was we wanted to see redemption take place. We just walked around the place, praying and sensing the areas that we walked on… “This is so hard. Maybe the key to this is not to find a place but just to start doing it!” So we decided that we’ll just do it. 

Of course we were just like any other human – we were afraid! But what were we afraid of? I couldn’t find an answer to that. “Lord Jesus, help us! Give us courage!” And we went forth. 

“Uncle, 刚才看到你在推你的脚,是不是有哪里不舒服?” and our conversation continued from there, to finding out that he has cataract. We asked if we could pray for him to be healed of cataract, initially he was apprehensive, but eventually he agreed. So we prayed with him where he was (in mandarin 😱), and we tested whether he could see the POSB sign that’s about 10m away. He said he could see the POSB sign more clearly! (Though not completely clear) then he said “Wah! 你们很厉害嘞!” which then gave us the opportunity to testify that it’s God who has the power to do that and we were just mere vessels! 

We spent about an hour (I think) hearing from him, sharing with him, and most importantly, testifying of God’s power and goodness to him.

We’ll very likely be doing this again! So come talk to us if you’re interested to know more ie what happened, how did we feel, etc, and even better, let us know if you’re keen to join us on the next time! It’s exciting! 🙂 

Redemption is more than just about sharing the gospel; it’s sharing life and extending to others the love of God.

My Key Learning Points in Preaching for the First Time

Haven’t been writing for a while… I always tell people that I hate writing, and yes I really don’t like to write because I can’t seem to write very well, but I do have a thing for blogging. Maybe because this is my own space and I have the freedom to write about anything and everything that my heart desires.

“Lord, what do you want me to write about?” I caught myself asking this question as I stared at my computer screen. I was eager to write a post but I had no idea what to write. Too many things have happened the past 3-4 months, and when I asked the Lord what to write, He brought to mind my first preaching experiences in my youth ministry. So here goes…

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The first time I ever preached was in Sri Lanka. I could still remember vividly the sermon I preached, and the feeling of sharing the word of God to the crowd. Initially I was nervous, but as I started speaking, I found myself enjoying it and in fact it was right after I finished preaching the sermon that I felt the Lord say this is what He will lead me to do in the future. At that point, I didn’t really know what God meant – all I knew in my 19-year-old understanding was I’m going to serve God with my life.

Fast-forward to about 6 years later, with much difficulty yet by the grace of God, I am finally in the place where God had been preparing me for – R-AGE, my very own church‘s youth ministry.

I have preached in other countries, taught in children’s church, taught in youth cell groups, but never preached to a youth group in Singapore before. The first time I preached on home ground was on the 23 April 2016. I felt so stressed during the time leading up to that day, especially the few days before that day. I was stressed for the following reasons:

  1. That I couldn’t deliver the Word of God accurately to the young people
  2. That I couldn’t make the Word of God relevant for the young people
  3. That I couldn’t hear God properly, resulting in sharing an untimely message to the young people
  4. That I couldn’t articulate the thoughts properly to the young people

Even thought I surrendered these fears to God before I went up to preach, it wasn’t until recently after I preach my second sermon to the younger youths, the pre-teens, that God showed me a revelation of serving Him in this area of preaching.

  1. Preaching is not about how good a speaker I am, but how great a God He is.
  2. Focus on preaching the Word of God accurately and precisely, not on persuading the congregation with flowery words.
  3. The response of the congregation does not determine whether I have done a good job because what matters to God is my obedience in delivering His word and delivering it accurately.

To sum up, God wants our obedience when we serve Him (not only in the area of preaching). And when we have the privilege of sharing His word, to share it accurately.

A glimpse of God’s heartbeat

cos they were saying “upper rooooooom~”

Tonight’s Upper Room (R-AGE’s prayer meeting) was one kind of cool. We came with absolutely no agenda, and God moved like no other Upper Rooms we’ve had before. Perhaps because we came with no agenda, we came without any preconceived notion of what Upper Room should be like, we just came. Perhaps not knowing even what to expect. We just came. Seeking the Lord’s face and heartbeat for the ministry and our nation. We just came. 

“‘In the last days, God says, I will pour out my Spirit on all people. Your sons and daughters will prophesy, your young men will see visions, your old men will dream dreams.”

‭‭Acts‬ ‭2:17‬ ‭NIV‬‬

Perhaps tonight we caught a glimpse of what this means. Because we came.

Unleashed – APYAC 2015

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love it when young people do silly things together ^^.

I’ve had the privilege to go to many conferences, even the widely known Hillsong Conference, I’ve been there twice. So I wasn’t feeling that positive or excited or whatever you call it, when I knew I was going to APYAC (Asia Pacific Youth-Alive Conference). Didn’t make things any better when the only thing I had in mind was to babysit the younger ones on the trip. But God changed my heart and my perspective, and I heard from God during the conference. I didn’t just hear from Him, He answered the only prayer I made on the first day of the trip – confirmation for my full-time call.

Everything that was shared in the conference resonated within me. Some call it missions, evangelism, discipleship, whatever you call it, I call it “bringing the gospel to the lost”. Bringing the gospel to the lost has always been the one thing that resonated within me since I came back to the Lord when I was 17.

I felt the burden and had the desire to serve God with my life when I was 19, and have always been praying for direction since then. I heard how many other people got their “confirmation” from God regarding their full-time call, and it made things so clear for them to go into full-time. I wanted the same “confirmation” so I prayed and asked God for the signs for me to enter full-time. Strangely, those things never happened. But everytime I prayed for those signs, I only hear God say “Why do you need them when you already know that I’ve called you?”. So after a while, I stopped praying those prayers, but one thing I never stopped asking for was my mum’s approval – and I received it about 5 months ago, which then led me to start pursuing my full-time call, starting as an intern in my own church.

Before APYAC, the one thing that I’ve always asked God is “Lord, what ministry/ which area do You want me to serve You in?” and this is THE one thing that I received from the Lord in APYAC 2015.

During one of the altar calls regarding a father’s blessings, I responded and I asked God for my own earthly father’s blessings for me to enter full-time. Just then, PJ came to lay hands on me and said “Let the Lord alone call you.” PJ, if you are reading this, thank you for being obedient to the Lord.

During another altar call, I felt God impress upon my heart the criticality of mentoring and discipling my sheep in 2016.

And the highlight for me in APYAC 2015 was when we prayed for the nations on the last day. I had the honour and privilege of carrying my nation’s flag because Leb was playing the drums for worship. And I really can’t deny that it was all planned neatly by the grace of God because it wasn’t pre-planned that Leb had to play drums that day, and if he didn’t have to play drums that day, he would be the one carrying the flag instead of me. Initially when I held the flag, I wasn’t feeling anything much until PJ came over behind me and said “Tiff, I’m so proud that you are carrying our nation’s flag.” Immediately, tears started to flow from my eyes. I was overwhelmed, man. Images of the critical groups of unsaved people in Singapore – people in gangs, prostitutes, elderly, and many more – flooded my mind. For the first time, I felt God’s heart for my nation. It was a huge and heavy burden. Then PJ released a word to me – “Stay faithful”. I couldn’t stop crying. It felt as though God, for the first time, turned on the tap of the reservoir that belonged to Singapore, and all the water gushed down from above into my mind then to my heart. And now, it’s the hands and feet that need to do the work that the mind and heart have received.

Lord, give me grace and mercy to do what You have called me to do. Take me and lead me wherever and however You will.

 

Arise, shine, arise!

I can’t describe how honoured and privileged I feel when a youth opens up and shares about his/her life. And today, another youth did just that. 😌

“Sis tiff, can you share with me more about how you got your full time calling?” the youth asked. I was like 😳 “oh ok. Maybe after this?” 

So we spent about close to an hour, me sharing about my journey and the youth sharing about what’s on the youth’s heart. It’s amazing. It’s amazing what God is doing and exciting that young people are desiring to serve God full time at this age. 

Lord, guard their hearts and protect the calling that You have upon their lives. 

Break my heart for what breaks Yours

Never experienced what it means to say “Lord break my heart for what breaks yours” as real as tonight. I was walking home and I saw an elderly man lying at the cross junction, beside a big truck. I walked closer and saw blood on his face and other parts of his body. His right knee was so badly scraped, the insides was exposed. Immediately I caught myself speaking in tongues. I didn’t know what to do. I was heartbroken. It was as though I heard God saying “pray for him. Pray for his soul. Pray for his salvation.” I didn’t have real words to pray, I could only pray in tongues. And when the paramedics came, I decided to continue walking home. Tears started to flow as I continued to pray for the man. 

Really. Nothing is as important as having a relationship with God. My heart yearns for young people to be equipped in sharing the gospel in mandarin and even better other dialects. There are too many people out there who cannot speak English, and we as the Church, needs to do something about it so that we may be effective in the extension of God’s kingdom.