Life as a Recruiter

It’s been some time since I penned down my thoughts like this, and I’ve always wanted to start doing it again but the inertia is simply too high. Even as I am doing this right now, my fingers are typing away but my head keeps saying “stop”. I personally hate to write, and don’t think that I write well, but I am a firm believer of penning down thoughts and reflective moments, and don’t mind sharing it with people whom I don’t know, really, because I believe that everything can be a blessing and encouragement to someone that happens to read it.

So…yes. Life as a Recruiter. So after I left SportSG, an opportunity came by to work in a recruitment firm. Many things happened in the short stint of 6 months.. Many things that I never expected myself doing nor happening to me.

The number one thing that I never expected myself to do was: CUSTOMER SERVICE. Yes, you read it right – Customer Service. I still remember very clearly I said it when I was in Secondary school that I will NEVER EVER be in the customer servicing line. And little did I know that I’d be doing that some 10 years later. Don’t get me wrong, I enjoyed every bit of the recruitment process, but the concept about customer service is something that I haven’t quite grasp. I mean I can be nice and all to the people that I meet everyday at work, I can be very professional, but I really don’t see why I need to provide “customer service” to them. I cannot stand myself whenever I hear myself trying to convince the candidates to take up the job that had been offered to them. I cannot stand myself when I have to try to appease the clients and candidates, when sometimes it’s obviously not my fault that certain things happen.

But of course, working in this line the past 6 months has been VERY HUMBLING. It’s a humbling experience for several reasons:
1) I get scolded by clients and candidates yet I cannot retaliate.
I don’t like getting scolded. Ok, who does anyway. But I think it’s definitely harder for people like me to get scolded and yet not retaliate because I grew up learning to defend and speak up for myself, if I am not in the wrong. So being scolded for not doing anything wrong was one thing that I cannot comprehend and accept.

2) Consultants who are relatively newer doing better than me. 
I have always been very competitive since young. Even with my own sister. I need not be the best among my peers, but I definitely cannot lose out to my juniors. Well, that’s me. So when I saw consultants who were more junior but did better than me, I felt a tinge of bitterness.

3) Everything in this job is ever-changing. 
I need order. I need a plan for everything, and everything has to go according to plan. So when I realised that nothing is constant in this job, I almost went crazy. I had to find my own order, but no, I couldn’t. When you think that you have managed the candidate well and are quite sure that he/she will take up the job at the end, you are wrong because nothing is within your control whether he/she decides to take up the job at the end of the day. Nothing was constant.

The above three things are my weaknesses; but now when I think back, I can only thank God for placing me in such a character-moulding environment. I hated being scolded by people for nothing, but Jesus experienced the same or even worse. I didn’t like losing to people younger than me, but I’ve learnt to rejoice and celebrate others. I cannot tolerate disorder, but what is consistent other than God? I’ve learnt to adapt and work around things, I’ve learnt to trust God even more in the past 6 months because He was my only constant when everything else was not.

And there’s one last thing that I want to testify:
I had a pay cut when I came here – close to $500 decrease. But God is so good. At the end of the 6 months when I calculated my average monthly pay (there’s commission in this job), it is almost EXACTLY the same as what I was getting in SportSG! If I could turn back time, I would choose to do this again. My avg monthly pay is SLIGHTLY lesser than what I got in SportSG, but the experience that I’ve gotten is certainly way more than i could’ve imagined 🙂

Concerning this house that you are building, if you will walk in my statues and obey my rules and keep all my commandments and walk in hem, then I will establish my word with you, which I spoke to David your father. And I will dwell among the children of Israel and will not forsake my people Israel. (1 Kings 6:12-13 ESV)

Advertisements

my 1st official handball game

SHL – NTU vs Breakers (23:15)

Today is the second game for NTU, but my first because I was away in BKK when they played the first game. And today’s game was also my first official handball game (so the title says).

The Breakers team has been well-known to be good, strong, fast, full of chemistry, swift, and perhaps every other positive word that you can think of when it comes to a handball game. They are….well, kinda “feared by all” so to say.

How did I feel since my first official game was against them? Hmm, honestly, I wasn’t feeling very anxious. It didn’t bother me how good others said they are; I just wanted to play well and enjoy the game. I mean…it’s true that they were good, but regardless of how good a team is, chances of winning is always 50-50 (well, that’s what I believe). I mean…how lousy can we be if we do put in the effort to train and all, right? If even before the game starts and we think negative, then that’s it. Chances of winning would go down all the way to perhaps 10% if lady luck is on our side. But no, lady luck doesn’t exist. So yeah.. 0%.

So how was the experience of an official handball game? It was TIRING. I didn’t enjoy myself very much… maybe because it felt like the whole game play was kinda too rigid. Or maybe also because I don’t have enough training myself. Many reasons, but that was certainly not the best of the team, I feel.

Any afterthoughts? To be honest, I felt that I didn’t play very well because I was inferior. I felt that I wasn’t good enough technically as compared to the others that were on the team.

So what’s next? Well, I guess in order to play better, I need to remove that thought of inferiority, I suppose. Don’t know if I’m looking forward to the next few games or even training.. The thought of traveling down for training is just !@#$%^&*. JI BA BOM FAR. But I’ll try (:

Officially the Last Semester

Alright. Today marks the first day of my last semester in NTU (fingers crossed that I don’t fail any mod this sem) and it’s a bittersweet feeling as I think about it… Sweet because I’m almost done with this phase of life; bitter because I gotta start thinking about what I wanna do when I graduate and no more having all the time in the world doing whatever I want. ): SIGH. 

Attended two lectures today – 930 to 1130 and 1430 to 1630. Didn’t have any hardcopy notes for lecture because there were just toooooo many people printing notes. -.- Highlight of the day: I helped to fix the e-space printer because it was stuck. Kudos to all the times we had to fix the church printer when we printed cell material. Haha.. xD 

PS: I have handsome profs for Monday lectures. Hopefully it gives me enough reason to continue going to lectures~ HAHA.

Are new year resolutions really THAT important?

“2014 is in 2 days’ time! So have you made any resolutions for the new year?”

I’m certain this sounds pretty familiar to many of us, in fact, more often that not, we even pose this question to the people around us.

Setting goals and resolutions for the new year used to be so fun and exciting when I was young(er), but as I sit at my table in hall right now, I’m asking myself why do I even bother doing such a thing when year after year, my resolutions were never achieved. Well, at least most of them were not achieved. As I look back, I realised that as the year goes by, the resolutions I have made slowly fades and become seemingly not as important or significant as when I first wrote them down. And maybe…just maybe…that’s why I didn’t achieve many of them.

I’m not saying that new year resolutions are not important, I’m just thinking why I’ve never been able to achieve everything.. In fact, I’d believe that resolutions are important. Resolutions are a form of motivation; something I fall back on when I feel lost throughout the year.. When I don’t know what I’m doing, I go back to my resolutions to remind myself of what I have set out to achieve in the new year. Without resolutions, the year will simply pass us by, and we would have lived another year feeling like ‘it’s just another year’. But with resolutions, at least we would have a benchmark of whether it was a fruitful/fulfilling year, even though we might not have been able to achieve everything on our list~ so make your resolutions well and achievable! (:

PS: post drafted four days ago~

World Race

Met Noe, Jer and Nard for dinner just now at JCube, and Jer mentioned about World Race. Came home to check out more about it, and I’m excited thinking about it. 11 months in 11 countries. It really sounds quite exciting.. (: Praying for a vision on what is in store for me upon graduation. Pray along with me! (:

[continued]

Ok, World Race is definitely not for me this coming year because I will miss my convocation if I were to go for it. And I can’t miss convocation because my parents would be utterly disappointed. Convocation is like THE day that they have been looking forward to…perhaps from the day I was born till now. Yeah.. So I can’t disappoint them, and so I know for sure that World Race is out for me in 2014~ Gonna keep this post to update my thoughts on this. (:

Stuck at Crossroads

Image

Just met an old friend for brunch, and am sitting at Yishun Starbucks right now, chilling, listening to Kiss 92.0 FM and trying to do some FYP stuff~ I love this kinda lifestyle.. To meet old friends, sit somewhere to do what I need to do, yet at the same time be able to chill and relax.. 

Had a conversation with the old friend about my dream of going on a working holiday alone after I graduate, but which all seem so impossible because of parental objections and so many other things to consider.. then again, people will say “you only live once“. Yes, I only live once but does that mean that I do whatever I want to do and think later? I don’t know~ 

I feel that I am stuck at a crossroad in life right now. So many things I wanna do, yet I can’t see how they can come to pass. There are three things I wanna do when I graduate before I decide to settle down with a proper job:

  • Do a working holiday
  • Experience working in church
  • Experience the life of being a teacher in a normal Singapore school

God, open my eyes to see what You have in store for me when I graduate. These are just my plans, but I want Your plans for me more than anything else because I know Your plans for me are the best. If what I have planned are according to Your plans, then I pray that You will open doors for me because I really can’t see how these can come to pass with the situation I am in right now. 

I run for God. What about you?

Image

I finally brought myself out for a run tonight… Running in NTU compound is an experience that I suppose I can get from nowhere else. I used to really hate running (well, I think I still dislike running), but I have a thing for running in NTU. I love the quiet moments, where there are few vehicles around, and not many people watching you. 

As I started to run, in fact every time I run, I am reminded of these verses.

Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.

-Hebrews 12:1-2

Although these two verses are not new to me, because I am reminded EVERY TIME I run, but the Lord showed me things in my life right now and perhaps in the academic year ahead that I will need to deal with. 

The Lord revealed to me the issue of seeking man’s favour, and not God’s. It was then that I realise that I have always been feeling stressed about FYP because I was scared that I might not be able to win the favour of my mentor/profs/any other authority figures, hence not able to do well for my FYP. I was reminded of the importance of seeking God’s favour, and more importantly seeking God HIMSELF, above everything else. 

The Lord also brought to my mind the people in my life – those that will cheer me on and encourage me and support me throughout the race, and those that judge me and jeer while I am running. It’s so important that we have people in our lives that will cheer us on and support us when we are running this race. It’s always easy when we are running the downslopes in the race, but when we run the steepest elevating slopes in the race, it’s definitely tough but it’s always easier to finish that part if there are people to push us and run with us. It is just too scary to be running this race alone because we are most vulnerable when we are by ourselves. We can easily give up and decide to hop on the bus at the nearest bus-stop, or worse still, take a cab. No, we need to finish running this race with no short-cuts. 

God, I pray that You will teach me to run this race with perseverance. Help me to finish running this race and to never give up. Lord, You have marked out a different race route for all of us, so help me not to compare with others so that I may run my race well. Thank You, Lord.