Photo credits: My beloved youth pastor
The bridge of “The Stand” never fails to find its way to my heart. And today, it was the chorus that struck me.
What can I say? What can I do? But offer this heart, O God, completely to You.
God has given us everything. He gave us even His only Son to die for our sin (which is what prevents us from having a perfect relationship with God) so that we may have that perfect relationship with Him again. Nothing that we can ever give will be able to be compared with what God has given. And that left me believing that the only thing that’s ever worth giving to God is myself, and giving it completely without restraint.
If that’s the English song that describes how I feel towards God, then here’s the Chinese one —全然为你.
我生命气息全然为你，如同香膏倾倒 / 无悔地付出，只愿你心得满足 / 我生命气息全然为你，如同香膏倾倒 / 全心来献上，最深刻真挚的爱
Just as the title of the post says – I am officially three months into working life. I have been so caught up with working and doing that I haven’t got the time to sit and really think about the kind of life I really wanted after graduating from university. It’s been a long time since I blogged and what triggered me to feel like blogging was the wordpress notification in my phone. (haha..) I have the luxury to sit at my sofa right now to think about what to write because I kinda fell ill after the trip to Bangkok. Woke up this morning and felt so lethargic and lazy to go to work, but went nevertheless because I thought I had been on leave for too long (2 days) and it would be good for me to just go to work to clear my mails. So I did, and nearing lunch time, I felt kinda sick and decided that I should go see a doctor and get MC instead. I did, and here I am, sitting and thinking.
The past three months had its ups and downs. I must say that I really enjoy the people that I hang out with for lunch and Sporting Fridays normally, but my boss has really been a nightmare. I looked forward to going to work every morning, doing the things I do, meeting and talking to people, even attending meetings was something I could look forward to. But one day, my nightmare came and crash all these good things that have happened to me at my workplace. I mean…the good things still happen, but now it is really a chore to go to work. And I especially hate attending meetings because it’s such a waste of time. “Tiffany, please be there for the meeting at 2pm.” or whatever the time is. I mean..if I’m there just to make up numbers, then what’s the point really? “Oh, you can go there and learn and hear about things that they are doing..” Yeah, I’m sure.. Like c’mon.. Are you kidding me? Just let me do things that will help me to do my work better. Why should I bother about what others are doing when my own department is already !@#$%^&* ?!
Oh wells. Just hoping that things get better… or a better opportunity comes my way~
Just met an old friend for brunch, and am sitting at Yishun Starbucks right now, chilling, listening to Kiss 92.0 FM and trying to do some FYP stuff~ I love this kinda lifestyle.. To meet old friends, sit somewhere to do what I need to do, yet at the same time be able to chill and relax..
Had a conversation with the old friend about my dream of going on a working holiday alone after I graduate, but which all seem so impossible because of parental objections and so many other things to consider.. then again, people will say “you only live once“. Yes, I only live once but does that mean that I do whatever I want to do and think later? I don’t know~
I feel that I am stuck at a crossroad in life right now. So many things I wanna do, yet I can’t see how they can come to pass. There are three things I wanna do when I graduate before I decide to settle down with a proper job:
- Do a working holiday
- Experience working in church
- Experience the life of being a teacher in a normal Singapore school
God, open my eyes to see what You have in store for me when I graduate. These are just my plans, but I want Your plans for me more than anything else because I know Your plans for me are the best. If what I have planned are according to Your plans, then I pray that You will open doors for me because I really can’t see how these can come to pass with the situation I am in right now.
to acknowledge God in all situations, to trust Him for His perfect timing, to be a testimony in speech and actions to impact lives and win souls by all possible means for the glory of God.
i’m starting to feel abit apprehensive about REAL.
i don’t know what to expect…
everyday just seems to get more and more tiring…
i guess we just need to rely on God and see how God is going to sustain us and take us through this journey of growing deeper in Him and in His people. (: