I was totally depressed after the first paper yesterday. It was the first time in my entire life I felt so helpless at an exam. I could do the paper but I wasn’t sure of any of the answers at all. I kept praying but the more I prayed, the more frantic I got as I saw the clock ticking away…
Paper ended. I went back to hall, and I couldn’t bring myself to study for the next paper. So I watched shows, hoping that I might feel better afterwards. But, no. I didn’t. Cooked dinner, ate and slept thereafter. Slept at about 9-ish and woke up this morning at about 8.30..
Woke up, bathed, sat at my desk amd opened the 40DITW book. Did today’s devotion and headed to school to have breakfast and study.
As I was walking to school, I felt a tug in my heart. “Does it matter whether you do well for your exams? Regardless of whether you do well, you future is in good hands.”
“God, is that you?”
“It doesn’t matter whether you do well in your exams. Just do your best. Everything is in good hands.”
And I knew it was God. Yes, God doesn’t judge us based on how well we do for our exams. God doesn’t look at my GPA and then decide how much to love me. His love is unconditional. God doesn’t expect anything out of me; He only desires that I love Him and obey Him. And regardless of how well or how bad I do, if I put in my best in all that I do, God is glorified 🙂 and no matter what results I get, God can still use me the way He wants to.
Thank You Lord, for Your unconditional love. Thank You for never judging me for the end results but loving me despite my incapabilities. Thank You for never giving up on me. Thank You for being the only constant in my life.. Thank You…