Life as a Recruiter

It’s been some time since I penned down my thoughts like this, and I’ve always wanted to start doing it again but the inertia is simply too high. Even as I am doing this right now, my fingers are typing away but my head keeps saying “stop”. I personally hate to write, and don’t think that I write well, but I am a firm believer of penning down thoughts and reflective moments, and don’t mind sharing it with people whom I don’t know, really, because I believe that everything can be a blessing and encouragement to someone that happens to read it.

So…yes. Life as a Recruiter. So after I left SportSG, an opportunity came by to work in a recruitment firm. Many things happened in the short stint of 6 months.. Many things that I never expected myself doing nor happening to me.

The number one thing that I never expected myself to do was: CUSTOMER SERVICE. Yes, you read it right – Customer Service. I still remember very clearly I said it when I was in Secondary school that I will NEVER EVER be in the customer servicing line. And little did I know that I’d be doing that some 10 years later. Don’t get me wrong, I enjoyed every bit of the recruitment process, but the concept about customer service is something that I haven’t quite grasp. I mean I can be nice and all to the people that I meet everyday at work, I can be very professional, but I really don’t see why I need to provide “customer service” to them. I cannot stand myself whenever I hear myself trying to convince the candidates to take up the job that had been offered to them. I cannot stand myself when I have to try to appease the clients and candidates, when sometimes it’s obviously not my fault that certain things happen.

But of course, working in this line the past 6 months has been VERY HUMBLING. It’s a humbling experience for several reasons:
1) I get scolded by clients and candidates yet I cannot retaliate.
I don’t like getting scolded. Ok, who does anyway. But I think it’s definitely harder for people like me to get scolded and yet not retaliate because I grew up learning to defend and speak up for myself, if I am not in the wrong. So being scolded for not doing anything wrong was one thing that I cannot comprehend and accept.

2) Consultants who are relatively newer doing better than me. 
I have always been very competitive since young. Even with my own sister. I need not be the best among my peers, but I definitely cannot lose out to my juniors. Well, that’s me. So when I saw consultants who were more junior but did better than me, I felt a tinge of bitterness.

3) Everything in this job is ever-changing. 
I need order. I need a plan for everything, and everything has to go according to plan. So when I realised that nothing is constant in this job, I almost went crazy. I had to find my own order, but no, I couldn’t. When you think that you have managed the candidate well and are quite sure that he/she will take up the job at the end, you are wrong because nothing is within your control whether he/she decides to take up the job at the end of the day. Nothing was constant.

The above three things are my weaknesses; but now when I think back, I can only thank God for placing me in such a character-moulding environment. I hated being scolded by people for nothing, but Jesus experienced the same or even worse. I didn’t like losing to people younger than me, but I’ve learnt to rejoice and celebrate others. I cannot tolerate disorder, but what is consistent other than God? I’ve learnt to adapt and work around things, I’ve learnt to trust God even more in the past 6 months because He was my only constant when everything else was not.

And there’s one last thing that I want to testify:
I had a pay cut when I came here – close to $500 decrease. But God is so good. At the end of the 6 months when I calculated my average monthly pay (there’s commission in this job), it is almost EXACTLY the same as what I was getting in SportSG! If I could turn back time, I would choose to do this again. My avg monthly pay is SLIGHTLY lesser than what I got in SportSG, but the experience that I’ve gotten is certainly way more than i could’ve imagined 🙂

Concerning this house that you are building, if you will walk in my statues and obey my rules and keep all my commandments and walk in hem, then I will establish my word with you, which I spoke to David your father. And I will dwell among the children of Israel and will not forsake my people Israel. (1 Kings 6:12-13 ESV)

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Redeem One

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About 6 months ago, PJ and I met to catch up and he shared with me his vision of Redeem One over lunch. I was excited but I don’t recall saying yes to be a part of it. 2 months after the meet-up, I see a WA group “Redeem Movement 2014” appeared in my WA. I was like “huh? win.” but I did it anyway 🙂

The conference ended yesterday, and today marks the first day of the movement; low and behold, I am eternally grateful to be a part of this vision. We saw God move from the first day of conference to the last day of conference – surely God is faithful. He met with the young people just as He has promised – “Draw near to me and I will draw near to you.” and “You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.”. It is God’s promise to us to when we seek Him with all our hearts, He will be found by us. He will meet with us. And yes, we did right there at the conference. The spiritual atmosphere changed from what felt like a heavy dark cloud hovering above us on the first night, to a light hearted joyous celebration on the last night at the conference – it was simply amazing, and I could only stand in awe of what I saw.

In the words of PJ – “Finally. Finally the young people of R-AGE knows the true meaning of their youth group – to Redeem A Generation for Eternity.”. I am excited to think about R-AGErs growing in the Lord and R-AGE growing for the glory of God. Indeed every opportunity to serve in the youth ministry makes me want to go back to the ministry so much more, but I have so little capacity right now.

Lord, if it is Your will, I pray for greater capacity. Greater capacity to love the young people, greater capacity to have compassion for the young people, and greater capacity to minister in this area.

因为一个人的以为,十二个人的聚集,神创造了“Redeem One”的可能。

Ohana

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Ohana means family. Family means nobody gets left behind or forgotten. -Lilo & Stitch

Just watched this show for the first time in my life and I thought that it’s quite a good show to learn about family. I love Disney movies because regardless of what age you are, you’ll certainly enjoy it. 🙂

I enjoyed finding out how love changed Stitch – from a wild little crazy alien,  to a gentle loving human-like creature. I guess that is the power of love. Love, having the power to change a person into someone better.

This reminds me of the love of God. Human love can make a person change, what more the unconditional love of God? The unconditional love of God is certainly the most powerful. Not only can it cause a person to change, it causes the person to change to become more like Jesus. Food for thought.

 

I love young people

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This young man here is my ex-tutee from three years ago. Met him today for lunch at Jem because he’s enlisting next Tuesday.

My impression of him is still the secondary school boy that doesn’t wanna study. Haha. But I guess as time passes, he’s definitely grown up. (:

When I first started teaching him, I felt there was something more to this than just teaching. I didn’t know what was the ‘something more’, I just did what I had to do.

3 years down the road, his mum still calls me to talk to me about things…and he still cares to share life with me. So I’d believe that the feeling of ‘something more’ is not from me.

After meeting him today, I realised that I still enjoy meeting young people. I like to hear about their lives and how they’ve been growing. I like to be a part of their lives and to be in a position of influence to them. Not just like, I think I love young people. (:

#liberate2013committee #girlsnightout

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So we met for dinner after YAYP service today. We had dinner at Paragon’s Sushi Tei. We talked sooooo much, we lost track of time and we only realised it’s past 10pm when the lady came to tell us that they were closing.. Haha.. It’s true..

I really thank God for the opportunity to be in this committee and having known these girls. Honestly, we didn’t grow close until retreat started proper and it was only during retreat that we started to talk more and share deeper. It was through the prayer and intercession that brought us closer.. And of course not to forget those times that we “ganged up” to go against J.. Haha for fun luhh.. Not literal.. 🙂

I realised that all four of us don’t come from full Christian family… And it was really nice to get together to share about what God is doing in our lives. It encourages me to hear what God is doing in the lives of people around me.. Praying and hoping that our sharing and meetings won’t just stop at this time 🙂

God knows best

Ok, so my FYP mentor told me to meet her at 10am today in the lab. We were supposed to grow the cells today but it turned out that the cells weren’t growing very well—we’ll, at least the colonies couldn’t be seen and so because of that we weren’t able to grow any cells today. So we made new agar gels and that’s all for my lab today. It ended at about 10.45am.

Hmm, on one hand, I am quite sian that the cells didn’t grow because that means that we will have to do ligation again next week, and that would mean that more time is required for me to learn what I need to learn. On the other hand, I am thankful because I was worried yesterday (and still worried this morning) that I might need to stay late for lab and not able to make it for cell. I am leading worship today so I need to go to cell earlier! Haha yupp, so thank God that I can go to cell earlier today because of whatever that happened 🙂

Thought process after the first paper

I was totally depressed after the first paper yesterday. It was the first time in my entire life I felt so helpless at an exam. I could do the paper but I wasn’t sure of any of the answers at all. I kept praying but the more I prayed, the more frantic I got as I saw the clock ticking away…

Paper ended. I went back to hall, and I couldn’t bring myself to study for the next paper. So I watched shows, hoping that I might feel better afterwards. But, no. I didn’t. Cooked dinner, ate and slept thereafter. Slept at about 9-ish and woke up this morning at about 8.30..

Woke up, bathed, sat at my desk amd opened the 40DITW book. Did today’s devotion and headed to school to have breakfast and study.

As I was walking to school, I felt a tug in my heart. “Does it matter whether you do well for your exams? Regardless of whether you do well, you future is in good hands.”

“God, is that you?”

“It doesn’t matter whether you do well in your exams. Just do your best. Everything is in good hands.”

And I knew it was God. Yes, God doesn’t judge us based on how well we do for our exams. God doesn’t look at my GPA and then decide how much to love me. His love is unconditional. God doesn’t expect anything out of me; He only desires that I love Him and obey Him. And regardless of how well or how bad I do, if I put in my best in all that I do, God is glorified 🙂 and no matter what results I get, God can still use me the way He wants to.

Thank You Lord, for Your unconditional love. Thank You for never judging me for the end results but loving me despite my incapabilities. Thank You for never giving up on me. Thank You for being the only constant in my life.. Thank You…